Thursday, December 31, 2015

Happy New Years 2016!

Happy New Years 2016!

Well, I succeeded in finding employment.  For the time being, I'm no longer mooching from the government at maximum capacity.  This is important for you to know as a tax payer, because I hit rock bottom once.  The unemployment office and tuition waiver program deemed beneficial for me as an individual in a society ill fated with a surplus of unemployed people out there.  Now, it's my time to pay the taxes and help the society out.  Not everyone who receives government benefits try to ride the system as for long as they can and for as much as it will allow them to.  I'm the perfect example of how the government unemployment and tuition program can help out an individual in need of help.  Like many young people out there, I too have a college degree.  Sadly, I saw how many students were being buried alive in student debt over the years trying to get that piece of paper that sadly means very little in the real world of the job market.  My message to the world is for people to realize that grades and pieces of paper from an accredited school are not everything.  Having good interpersonal skills, effective communication skills, leadership, passion, joy, interest, fun, love, and a sense of belonging is much more important in regards to your humanity than some cookie cutter all around bullsh*t education.  The national student loan debt is toppling over 1 trillion dollars.  Customers at grocery stores complain to the manager about being charged one dollar or two more; people will bend over for a quarter that just dropped on the street; they'll even fly down to the store right after Christmas to return the gifts they don't want.  So how is it that no one is paying attention or doing anything about the student loan debt crisis?    

I know it's not my responsibility to give a crap about the student loan debt crisis.  I'm obviously not the one in power in charge.  My only job here on Earth is to not be suckered into this vortex of calamity.  No, I do not want to go to your God damn accredited college that costs $10,000 a semester.  Who the hell around here makes that kind of money?  Are you serious?  Have you ever even tried making $10,000 in one quarter of the year?  EARNING MONEY IS HARD, but spending money is easy.  How dumb do the school system think we are?  Hell no, I'm not falling for this bullsh*t.  You can keep whatever false promises of an accredited school degree will entitle me.  Next, I'll jump on the magical train ride with you.  Seriously, MONEY IS HARD TO MAKE.  It comes for the working arms and hands of the people.  You either offer services or goods in exchange for money that all consumes your time.  Your time on this planet is limited.  No, I don't want to spend all my God damn time in some artificial school environment that has very little or nothing to do with actual work that'll promise me a paycheck at the end of the week.  I await for the schools to be closing down because they can't afford to operate anymore.  With very view job prospects, who will believe in the school system anymore?  How will they be getting their funding?  Who the hell would donate if students have had a horrific time finding jobs?    I know I sure as hell don't have donations for my school.  I'm pretty sure there are a lot of people like me out there who has lost faith in the school system.  Just get a job and start working!

Well, that's what I'm currently doing and continuing to do.  The money I make is all from hard work.  School or no school, working hard is how you get ahead in life.  This week, I was putting in a lot of hours.  There's no magic or secret formula to success.  You have to sleep early, wake up early in the morning, and put in the time and effort.  If you think some magical fairy or college degree will pave the wave for you, you're dead wrong.  Everything takes hard work, time, and effort.  If you're lacking in any of these areas, you know something is wrong or will fly out of course real fast.  Get rich quick schemes will only lead you down the wrong path.  Rome was not built overnight.  Time will catch up and bite you in the ass.  It's also essential to stay away from negative people.  It's not easy as they are apart of the community as everyone else.  Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, but if you want everything to be picture perfect than don't do anything.  Go sit on the sidelines and don't do anything if you don't want anyone to judge or criticize you or your work.  Whenever you create something, you open yourself to constructive criticism.  It's important that you keep going and not respond to the haters or naysayers out there.  Yes, negative people are out there hiding behind every corner to verbally attack you for absolutely no reason whatsoever other than it being a projection of the reflection of their owns selves onto you.  That is why it's so important for you to believe in yourself.  Try not to respond to the critics and just keep going.  Deep down inside, the haters just want you to do better.  Yes, we all suck at doing something.  They just want us to do better.  Yes, most of us take it the wrong way and get offended too easily.  It's also important to know how to take in and deal constructive criticism.  If no one ever tells you how bad you're doing, how else would you ever get any better than where are you now?  As for me, I just try to take things likely with a grain of salt and move on.  These are just some of the important lessons in life I've learned.  I hope to learn more next year as well and stay employed.

Happy New Years!

Sunday, December 20, 2015

Santa Claus Comes to the Ghetto

Well, I have nothing else to say but Merry Christmas.  I know I won't have time further down the road this week, because I will be working.  I guess this is where most of my tax money is going to.  Sigh, no wonder why he's so fat.  There you have it people, it's Santa Clause.  Ho ho ho, ha ha ha.
Damn, I'd be happy like that too if I'd be getting paid like you off of the work of people who actually do something for a living.  At least the kids are loving it.  When you're an adult and you know too much about where things come from, you kind of ruin things.  Ignorance is bliss.  Not knowing about finance and being completely ignorant of the amount of effort people put into these things makes everything a whole lot of fun.  That's why being a kid is great.   You're not concerned about anything else but having fun at the moment.  Everything else is just the responsibility of the adults around.  Yup, I definitely wish I was a kid again.  No, I didn't want to know about where taxes come from.  No, I didn't want to feel the burning sensation of how hard people need to work just to keep up with making ends meet.

With the nonsense and holidays aside, I have a full work schedule ahead of me starting Monday to Thursday.  Sleeping early, drinking plenty of fluids, and eating all help me prepare and function throughout the week.  I hope you all enjoy Christmas and the holidays off.

Thank you for coming and Merry Christmas!  

Friday, December 18, 2015


Well, here's my biweekly paycheck.  No, it doesn't come from youtube or google adsense.  I hauled ass shooting mobile x-rays for patients.  No, it's not easy.  No, you can't sit on your pretty ass all day and expect money to come to your doorstep without doing anything.  No, you can't pretend you are a beautiful woman and every one wants you.  No, there is no amount of schooling that can magically grant you a job that you want just because you have an expensive degree.  Yes, you have to work hard and feel the burning sensation coursing through your body.   Yes, you have to sleep early.  Yes, you have to wake up early to get your sh*t together.  Yes, you have to drive.  Yes, you have to be careful of rules, regulations, and laws all the time.  Yes, you have to fuel your body with food and hydrate yourself.  It's called responsibility.  Welcome to the real world kids.

So is overtime and killing yourself over more hours worth it?  If you don't have kids to feed, it's not worth it; because 1/3 of the money you makes goes straight to TAXES.  Yes, you get taxed up the butt hole for just about everything.  Hell, I have to pay both New Jersey and New York taxes.  I have not come home to $2000 a paycheck simply because the taxes always rape me.  If I want to see $2000 in my hand per biweekly paycheck, I would need a new job that pays $30 an hour.  Unfortunately, there's not a lot of companies out there willing to pay you anything but peanuts.  The economy is bad and will always be bad as long as I'm alive just because I was born.  Sorry no, money does not grow on trees.  If you really want something in this world or the next or wherever the hell you find yourself, you need to work hard to obtain whatever it is you freaking want.

  So is there anything else left in people's lives that worth anything except working all day and coming home to a paycheck that's been raped by taxes?  Nope, not at all.  This is why most of us are alive today.  We have to continue to work just to survive and make ends meet.  Has anything ever changed over the past hundreds, if not thousands of years?  Nope, we just continue to keep pumping out paychecks and keep on working:  Rinse and repeat.  Once in a while, you'll see people play the lottery or go gambling.  It's rare to see anyone accomplish something big or establish a successful homegrown business.  Congratulations to those who have made their dreams come alive!  In a world like this where everyone is out to stab you in the back for a dollar, reaching your goals in life is the most anyone can ever accomplish.  As for me, I feel as though I'm suppose to find stability.  Striking it rich overnight is just not in my ballpark.  Staying afloat and taking care of myself seems like all I need at the moment.  Staying out of trouble also seems like another one of my to-do-list.  Appreciation and showing gratification is what it boils down too.  All the money in the world can't buy you love or your health back from the brink of self destruction.  So be kind to yourself and others.  Thank you for reading.  I hope to post again!      

Sunday, December 13, 2015

My Dream Job for the Weekend

Well, screw my day job for the weekend.  I guess I can work here on my time off.  No, it's not a real gig but "my home office".  This is what I anticipate on doing secretly, away from normal people work.  I sell toys and hobbies on Amazon.  Yes, it's true.  The money has been coming in steadily like a real job.  The problem with starting, maintaining, and keeping up my business is and always has been the level of consistency and the retainment of new and old customers.  Good thing Amazon does a good job at that.  I just have to pay the seller fees whenever something gets sold.  Unlike the vast majority of my schooling, it's a brilliant system that works and is catered towards someone like me.  Yes, I'm out there for blood.  No, I'm not here trying to impress anyone else but my customers.

I guess that's it.  My time is up.  I've done what I needed to do, made some sales, and everything vanished right before my eyes.  How long can I keep this gig up?  Life is short.  Live your dreams. Pursue your passions.  School will only get you so far as it is only a tool.  No, school is not the ultimatum and trump card of things.  You literally have to wake your ass up in the morning, get your sh*t together, and get your voice heard out there.  Should you believe school alone will save your ass, you'll be in surprise.  Hard work, persistence, eating right, sleeping, and waking up fresh in the morning are some few life hacks that will actually do something good for you.  You can keep trying to cheat the system, but one day things will catch up to you and bite you in the ass.

Thank you for reading.  I hope I don't get swarmed with too much work over the holidays.
Merry Christmas if I don't get back!        

Saturday, December 12, 2015


Hello my readers!  I have reached 1000 page views thus far.  I've been very persistent for you to come and read my material.  No, it's not perfect but I've been trying to keep the authorities from black listing me like last time.  I hope no one is offended by my reading material.  I love to blog just as people love to sing or dance.  I find grace in typing and writing down my daily thoughts and ideas.
Thank you for visiting even  though it may just be accident, late night blog walking, a random drive by, stalking, spying, random entertainment purposes, or whatever the hell.

Nothingness, the great feeling of not having to work after four brutal days of working on the job.  Serving your community isn't the most funnest thing to do but that's where the money comes from.  Believe it or not, you need to be proactive when everyone else seems to be down in the dump.  The money needs to come in somehow.  Ultimately, that's all they want:  Money.  Serving others is one way to get there.  If you want one million dollars - Serve one million people.  Don't have a million dollars?  It's probably because you haven't been doing enough.  Sitting back and letting life pass by is great and all; but if you really want to accomplish something it's going to be a lot of hard work.  Talent will get you there but the other part of the key is always hard work.  When you've reached the paramount peek and you're dead tired that's when you know you have to go down the road just a little further to reach success.

As for me, I can keep huffing and puffing about all the fluff in the world but what I really need to do is go to the gym, workout, take a shower, and relax.  Do I have plans of going out and having fun?  Spending money and going out isn't all that is important to me at this moment as I know being well rested and doing your time exercising is vital in staying healthy for the work week to come.  This is a very important topic for me as well as many others.  You don't want to be a lazy bum, but you also don't want to be a workaholic who does nothing else but spend time working.  

Well, I'm just doing some daily maintenance.  Things are going dandy.  I'm just making sure I stay ou of trouble.  Thank you dropping by today.  I hope to post something more creative for content next time.

Sunday, December 6, 2015

The End of My 3 Days Off

Well, this is my most recent and current paycheck that just came in the mail.  No, I'm not going to sugar coat anything or add magical sprinkles to every little bite to make grandma happy.  This is what a paycheck looks like.  It says that I've worked 111 hours within a 2 week period.  I make $20.50 an hour for up to 80 hours.  After the 80 hour mark, I make time-and-a-half:  $31.  In total, I've made $2593.25!  Sounds awesome right!?  But wait!?  There are TAXES!  Yes, taxes will take its toll on you.  You only take 2/3 of what you make; the other 1/3 is for taxes to help pay for the cops that are hiding in the bush to pull you over for a speeding ticket; the roads; schools; hospitals; army; firemen; welfare participants; unemployment; and all kinds of other crazy.  In my personal opinion, it would be ridiculous for someone like me to strive and extend my hours beyond overtime simply because I would just be paying more taxes!  No, I don't like the cops who pull me over for traffic violations; no I don't like the school system; and no I don't like hospitals because they're generally creepy and scary.  As one can see, I'm not very fond of our government.  No, I don't think a lot of us are too happy with our government.  The roads have potholes and traffic all the time.  They have just raised the Holland Tunnel to $15!  It doesn't take a genius to know that all they want is our money.  The hell with having two jobs.  I don't like our government nor do I think they're doing a good job.  No, it's not easy to get a government job either.  I've tried getting hired by the government; and it's just as hard as anywhere else.  You have to be blood related to the people in charge or have a perfect passing score on whatever test they throw at you.  Taxes, taxes, and more taxes.

It's hard for someone like me to be in a position of power, because I'm out of touch with the politics involved.  I'm just a tax payer.  I have no idea or control as to where the money that comes out of my paycheck is being spent.  Because I make so low in comparison to everyone else who seems to be more hooked up than Donald Trump, I'm mostly likely to get all my work related taxes back in April.  It's clear to me that $2000 every two weeks is as much money someone like me can possibly make.  Therefore, spending $100,000 for a Master's Degree would be a waste of time and money.  You're telling me there's a company out there who is willing to pay their employees serious money!?  You have to be shitting me.  Long story short, I don't believe in the system.  I do believe people are fundamentally cheap and stingy.  They will deny you jobs and not care about giving you benefits for working full time.  It's a miracle that I've found some kind of job to be able to support myself for the time being.

Is this what ISIS is about?  Is this why all these terror attacks are going on in America?  People don't believe in the system anymore?  Work hard and pay more taxes for the people who don't?  Yes, the rich will always pay more taxes than the poor.  Yes, Western Imperialism is all about the money.  No, it's not fair to everyone.  I can see why so many other countries and individuals maybe wanting to terrorize America.  America wants to police the world, harness the power of big oil companies; and earn big money!  Not everyone wants their land taken over.  Not everyone wants to learn and speak English.  Not everyone sees eye to eye to America.  Well, America is all I have right now.  It's a love, hate relationship.  No one likes to pay taxes, but money is a fundamental evil that is necessary to keep the world to spin around.  Maybe it's just New Jersey that charges the hell out of people in taxes?  Florida isn't so bad with the tax situation.  Whatever the hell it is, they're going to want money for taxes and will take it from you regardless.

My viewer rates are now going to jump in record numbers, because I've mentioned key words such as "ISIS" and "terrorism".  Well that is one positive note about this blog in particular.  I invite you to  keep reading my stuff.  I want the audience.  Right now my audience is a bit low in numbers.  No, I'm virtually making nothing in Google Adsense or youtube.  In essence, I'm just writing for fun.  I won't be paying tax money any time soon.  I just don't make a dime off of this.  Paranoid?  No need to worry.  There's no money coming in.  With no money coming in, people are much less likely to give a f*ck as to what you're doing.  Things can only have if there's money coming in.  Once again, it's all about the money.  It's like a broken record, it just keeps repeating and always along the lines of nothing else other than "money".

I have to go to work tomorrow.  My schedule starts early off in the morning and ends at night time.   I have a ten hour shift.  Unlike school, I actually get paid for working.  Be thankful I guess.  Work hard and be persistent.  Taxes are just a part of living that society will never be able to be set free of.  I'm powerless and dreadful of Monday mornings, because I know that's when everyone has to go work.  What I can do is sleep early, get my outfit ready, and be prepared to rush out in the morning.  In terms of saving our own humanity having a positive attitude and outlook on life is more important than intelligence.   Show gratitude and appreciation for everyone's hard work.

Thank you for coming and stopping by.  I hope to see you next time!        


Saturday, December 5, 2015

Free Blogging Without the Writing

Video Time

Well, here's a video of me in my true form.  I was just posing I guess.  I edited the video just a little to make it look more natural as in cutting out anything unnecessary.  No, I'm not acting out a script or adding drama into the video.  It's just for modeling and video editing purposes.  No need to get excited.  It's just a small demonstration of what I can do with a camera.  Yes, I have the option of video, sound, and even lighting.  So I'm given the basic tools, so why can't I make anything of it?  Oh right?  Because of the school bullshit again.  Once again, school has nothing to do about following your dreams and passions about becoming a great film maker.  Well, f*ck the school.  I want to film God dammit!  If you can't handle it, go make yourself a new child and try and brainwash them so you can pet your arrogant egotistical ways.  That's a whole other issue:  People don't like being told what to do unless they're getting paid for it.  Well, I'm here on my free time off of work.  I love filming, and I'm going to do it.  Why fight me about it?  Why continue to argue with me?  Why?  Why must you try and step on me?  What do you get out of it?  I just want to try and enjoy life.  Why can't you let me do what I want?  Does it hurt you that I'm doing what I love?  Does it hurt you that I don't do what you tell me to do?  For weak minded people, learn how to say "NO" when confronted with manipulative people.

Unfortunately, I can't distinguish myself from friend or foe.  I don't know if someone is trying to help me with their criticism or trying to derail me into another direction into the armpits of hell.  It's best if everyone steps out and let me do my own thing.  Why people are so passionate about telling others what to do and not doing it themselves is a consist problem.  "Mind your own business" is something I would hear a lot growing up.  At the same time, maybe there are people who actually care.  A lot of times, we take constructive criticism the the wrong way.  Personally, I feel like I'm getting attacked.  Over the years, I've learned that people have a weird way of expressing themselves.  Sometimes, people usually mean the opposite of what they say.  It's a hate and love relationship between words and feelings.  As for me, I have to ignore the naysayer and just continue with what I'm trying to accomplish otherwise I won't get anything done, good or bad.  In the end I just want to release something worth while, a product.

Further down the road, I need an actual script.  I need something I've created to actually work off of and not just some randomness I made up on the spot.  I don't even know what I like yet:  Horror; romance; comedy; or just a good story?   But much like every other day, nothing ever gets done.  I'm striving to proceed with the baby steps.  I need to take it one foot at a time.  Be persistent and don't give up!    

Sugar Coating 101

Even after all my years in school and being told that I'm a special snow flake, I have $0.12 in earnings on Youtbe.  Welcome to the real world kids.  As I've stated before, school is a lot of bullshit.  It's just for baby sitting until you get kicked out into the real world when either time or money dries up.  No, I'm not defining one's worth by the number of views or audience they get from youtube or whatever social media; but I am pointing out the fact that there is much need for improvement.  I want to have an audience.  It's not funny to be making 12 cents.  Yes, it is kind of funny.  But of all honesty, people want to make money!  Telling me someone that they have potential or that they're good looking isn't enough!  You have to f*cking do something about it!  You have to be proactive!  You need to be creative and active.  You need to be thinking and making creative content persistently.  Just believing you're good isn't enough.  You need video, you need product, you need samples, you need something to share!  For f*ck sake, I'm dying out there.  I need an audience!  Why the hell am I shooting video if only grandma and grandpa is just watching  because we're family!?  I want more than that!  I want the criticism!  I want the nasty, arguing, and rotten comments!  Whenever you create something, you open yourself to constructive criticism; because deep inside THEY WANT YOU TO DO BETTER.  This is what happens when you sugar coat things!  You don't' get the audience!  You don't get the money!  You don't have the creative content, because you're too f*cking afraid of criticism!  You need to open your mind!

Yes, something is bloody wrong!  I've tried to some extent to reach out and get viewers.  I agree that my content isn't all that great, but I tried for starters.  Yes, I'm working on it or at least thinking about it.  Do I want to do better for myself!?  Yes, I do!  Perhaps I can include song?  Maybe, I can rap?  I have to be doing something or else I'll keep seeing these low ratings.  Could have I been a professional film maker or great actor just because!?  No!  You actually have to go out there, expose yourself, and share it with the world.  It's a great challenge and requires some degree of talent and hard work.  You want to be a lazy bum like me?  You'll get 12 cents in earnings and a few views.  
Wake up!  Wake the f*ck up!  I'm tired of being a bum!  Get talented already, work hard, and share!

Friday, December 4, 2015


No, this is not photoshopped.  I actually have seven of these in "my office" right now.  It's the remake of the Transformers Decepticon Trypticon!  As a toy and hobby reseller, yes the prices of these babies will hit big as they've previously.  I got them off of Amazon's Lightening Deals and Black Friday.  Tyrpticon has always been one of my favorites.  He's a self sufficient, mobile city that can transform into a giant dinosaur with lasers shooting out of his mouth.  In terms of business, I was just a bit younger and saw New York City's Toys R Us selling Grimlock for $100 each.  Now, the resell prices on eBay and Amazon are skyrocketing at a minimum of $300 each.  I have no doubt in my mind that Trypticon will do just as well as an investment.  Any who, I made my investment and hope it follows up for the years to come.  I've sold so many toys and games in the recent years that I believe and have the confidence to consult about such a niche in the market.  No, it's not a million dollar idea; but it gets me excited and passionate about something I care about.  I've been searching for Trypticon for a long time now.  Yes, I finally have him under my wing.  As a matter of fact, Trypticon is one of the few things I actually want to hold on to.  It's true!  He's a powerful, big dumb robot dinosaur that can transform into a city.  It's absolutely brilliant!  On the other hand I have old college and high school text books that do nothing but collect dust.  Hell, no one even wants to buy them, because they're outdated.  At least with Transformers, you can sell them for more than you bought them for, especially when they stop mass producing them from China (hopefully not the knockoff versions).

Well, that's my 2 cents for tonight.  As long as I continue to work hard and keep myself update; I'm good to go.  Thank you for reading!  I hope to write and see you tomorrow!   



Well, I once dropped off a letter in the Macy's Santa Drop Box asking for money to pay down my child support; but I know that's not how it works; so my company bestowed upon me a new portable digital x-ray machine and invited me to work full time hours and even max out overtime.  

No, I wasn't out partying or wishing that I had been born into a better life.  I was out there working hard.  I know success doesn't come easy.  "Hell" is exactly the word to describe it.  You have to sleep early, getup early, and be able to head out the door!  Getting out of bed in the morning is one of the hardest things to do.  In fact, Earth's gravity is even at it's highest peek in the morning time!  I cannot emphasize how much you need to be able to master the art of getting out of bed in the morning.  It's extremely important to not be tied down to your bed.  Once you're up, you're much more likely to be able to achieve your goals throughout the day.

Through the my harsh days of working, my company actually gave me a digital machine.  No, it's not the heavy CR cassettes they use.  The boss trusted me and spent the time and money to upgrade my equipment.  This is a breakthrough in my level of humanity!  I think this is the first time something like this ever happened!  Someone had faith to invest in me!  I was so proud that day.  I was also worried about the new level of responsibility I had to take on as well, but none the less I earned the trust of the company.   

I hope I continue to be a hard working employee and contribute back to the society.  Being a homeless bum isn't exactly what I wanted in life, but hopefully my job will provide me with much needed guidance.
Thank you for reading!