Loot Crate August 2016 - Antihero

Well, I tried out Loot Crate for once.  I got it off of Groupon and wanted to be like everyone else doing a review.  The good news is that I edited the sketch.  The bad news is that I continue to have very little or no views at all whatsoever.  Good, unique interesting content usually adds to the view count.  So all you need to do really is have some good footage and the word will spread.  Unfortunately, mediocre work will not cut it.  I guess I just don't promote either.  I really don't feel that this could be the best work I can do, but it works.  I can work on my game but this is all the time I have for at the moment.  I'm just a beginner learning the basics.  None the less, here is my video.  I thought about it and did it!  So, yes I can continue to film and review stuff people may have interest in.

That sums up the end of my weekend.  I don't have to do diddly squat unless I'm fully deployed for work but is that all I want for myself?  I only do stuff when I'm on the job?  Don't I ever go venture out in the world and do something exciting for the soul purpose of enjoying life?  It appears that I don't give a hoot.  I care about trying new and exciting dishes to eat, but when it comes to spending money on travel I think back how hard it was to earn that money.  No matter what anyone tells you MAKING MONEY IS HARD.  I don't enjoy spending so much money on an airplane ticket only to windup back at the same sh*t hole I started at.  There's no real point in me traveling.  I more into being happy on the inside than spending money on frivolously things that'll only last a day or two.  Food is the only exception, but it offers so much nutritional value the body actually needs.

Seriously, here we go again it's Monday tomorrow morning.  Worst of all, it's almost the end of summer.  This is all we have time for!  There's no time machine that can take you back.  Whatever happened, happened.  I worked a minimum of 40 hours a week Monday - Thursday and took the rest of the weekend off only to repeat the same schedule all over again.  I used my time to workout at the gym and swim at the pool.  I also did a little bit of shopping here and there.  I spent very little or no time in traffic trying to head somewhere far away.  Although I wished I could travel far out to California, Florida, or even Hawaii, time and money is always an issue.  I also don't want to feel the dread of having to come back here like a yo-yo.  $1000 on airfare only to fly out and comeback here with nothing much to show for it except a bunch of pictures.  It sounds kind of cliche, but we all do it.  If only I had something with more longevity like a job or visiting friends/family I actually trusted.  We come and go, but the important thing is to enjoy the time we have.  I made sure to squeeze in a lap dance or two.  Yes, it was well worth the money as chasing beautiful women on the streets may take a lot of effort and/or time.  In other words, I'm all about having cheap thrills.

Speaking of which I've been approached by family/friends about being the ripe old age of 31 and not being married yet.  "You should get married and have kids" is what everyone says.  Are you serious?  Marriage and having kids is one of the most expensive things conceivable.  Do you people think before you have children?  I don't want my child to be born in some kind of a ghetto!  I want my child to have their own room at least.  What about their mother?  Everyone seems to know me, but who in the hell knows the mother of my kids?  Who's the mom?  No one knows who the freaking mom is.  I don't even know who the mother of my children is.  How the hell could I possibly have children if I don't even have a grasp on who the mother is?  Jesus Christ, I don't even have my own place yet.  I'm a dude for life.  There's no way in Hell can this all work out without divine intervention of some sorts.  I'm better off spending my hard earned money on booklets of lottery tickets than to waste my time chasing a woman.  They're both equally as bad, but I would rather choose the lottery instead.  You are right, a lot of poor people still get married and have kids.  In fact, that is all you really see here in the ghettos:  Poor people on welfare with too many kids.  Don't insanely rich people ever have kids?  In any event, I'm too down to Earth to know better:  DON'T HAVE KIDS.  No, I can't handle working more hours.  No, I can't handle the woman screaming at me for no particular reason.  No, I can't handle people crying.  No, I don't want to see anymore bloodshed.  I don't want any of that sh*t!  I'm tired of it!  Leave me alone!  I'm happy with whatever I have at the moment.  You think beautiful women just spawn out of the heaves to have kids with men?  Don't make me laugh.

Thank you for visiting, I hope to see you next time!

DON'T TELL ANYONE YOU WON THE LOTTERY!

Well, I finally began my journey to winning the lottery.  After doing my research and dabbling, I resorted to playing scratch offs.  Basically, you are only allowed to play within your budget and buy ten of the same tickets out of the machine.  Without adding anymore fluff or sugar coating anything, I played the $5 game ten times.  As I have noted before the, NJ Lottery website dictates that this has a handful of a prizes left that no one as claimed yet.  Yes, I've done a bit of research before select this game in particular.  No, I didn't want to play a game that everyone has claimed nearly all the prizes already.  In a nutshell, I spent the time to look into the best shot at winning.  Well, guess what?  Even with my cold calculated ways, I only won $5.  Yes, I spent $50 to get $5 back like a chump.  It feels rough.  It feels bad.  It feels like Governor Chris Christie who has his named on the back stabbed me in the back so he can further feed his overwhelming fat self.  In the end, it was no one else's fault but my own to be gambling.  It was my choice.  I did it.  Thank God I limit myself to my budget, so I can keep away any negative side effects.    

So will I continue down this dark road?  If so, how often?  Is this a once a month kind of a thing?  Do I do it every week?  $50 a month for entertainment sounds reasonable.  In one year, $50 a month would translate to $600.  I could be saving up an additional $600 a year in the bank or waste it away on scratch offs.  $600 a year could better be spent on books!  According to the vast majority of wealthy people, books are of the most uttermost importance.  They provide us with knowledge, wisdom, inspiration, imagination, or just something to look forward to doing everyday.  As you can see, I'm rather stingy with my money.  I work hard for it.  We all work hard our money.  Maybe playing the lottery isn't something for me?  Or am I just too weak to stomach my loses and continue playing?  That's how the pros win at just about anything.  Athletes continue to train no matter if they win or lose.  Is it the same kind of mentality that perpetuates people to continue to play the lottery and win?  Do I deviate from my strategy?  Do I doubt my research?  Do I just start changing up things out of fear?  The greats will tell you to just keep doing what you're doing for mastery.  That means to put down more hours, effort, and even money into it!  If it's your thing, you'll continue to practice and train.  You have to train, train, and train.  Yes, this rule of mastery even applies to winning the lottery.  What are your chances of being a top tier singer, song writer, author, actor, computer programmer, doctor, dancer, or anything for that matter?  Winning the lottery is no different.  The chances are slim to none, but you keep trying until you hit it big.  If you give up, forget about it.

Guess what?  I'll be going to work tomorrow working on my trade.  No, I didn't win the lottery.  Yes, I have to continue to tinker and work on my craft.  There's no going back.  Don't you understand?  You can't just walk out.  You have to continue to train and work hard.  I don't want to feel like I'm complaining about having to go to work every Monday.  I want to feel like I'm working on my craft.  I want to feel like I'm being productive.  I don't want to be reminded how I have to work hard everyday so I can keep people on welfare.  I really want something to look forward that I can't obtain by just keep working like everyone else.  There's a price to pay just for giving it a chance.  What's the solution?  Gambling, I bet.  Gambling is my form of entertainment.  Gambling is my drug.  I know it's not pretty, but everyone has their demons.  Mine just happens to be scratch offs.  

Thanks for stopping by.  I hope to see you next time.

Ramen in the Summer Time

Other than getting fatter, I don't know what else I can promise down the road for sure.  So yeah, they have this new noodle shop down the road.  It's neat and all, because it's one of the only Japanese noodle shops around in the area without having to drive so much.  For $9.99, you can get a regular bowl with pork.  They also have  vegetable, hot and spicy, and seafood for $14.  Each day of the week, they serve something specialized for that day only.  In other words, you can't always get you want.  For example, they only serve curry and rice on Mondays.  I don't think they're doing customers a favor by limiting their options so much to the point there may only be one choice!?  I've never seen any restaurant limiting their menus so vastly.  For $15, you can get the lunch special!  It's basically the pork soup with a bowl of rice with their choice of meat for the particular day of the week.

 Although everything is quite tasty on the tip of your palate, it's costly for the proportions they serve you.  Some may find the soup a bit salty or even glaze in excessive amounts of MSG.  What makes the noodle bowl pricey is because of the soup.  It takes a whole day just to get the soup ready!  It's kind of odd why MSG would be detected.  It's not like they would use cheap packages of instant noodle for soup broth.  I would like to imagine that they took their time to make their soup as natural and chemical free as possible.

I hope my work week will go well or at least . . . I hope I won't feel moody?  It's important that I remain patient.  It's important that I don't hulk out.  It's important that I take my time.  It's important that I be nice to people.  It's important that I remain calm.  It's important that I don't flip out.  It's important that I keep my cool.  It's important that I get enough rest and sleep.  

Thank you all for visiting and reading.  I hope you have a good week!

Feeling Down About Having a Job

Well, welcome to the future.  I have my job I've worked so hard for, except it isn't picture perfect like I thought it would be as a kid.  No, I don't make a 6 figure salary, but at least I make as much as a public school teacher.  Instead of having to deal with noisy, annoying kids who look like they're going to throw something at you, I have to drive from nursing home to nursing home.  After a while, the driving wears you down.  Sometimes, you wish you could pull over and take a nap.  Rarely, do I ever see anyone on the side of the road taking a break.  Here, drivers just keep going,  I guess coffee is a fundamental necessity for adults to stay awake.  Life on the road is not easy.  Life sitting inside of a school for hours on end wasn't so satisfying either.  What are we to do?  Both school and work life sucked.  None of it seemed to really matter to me.  Like a psychopath, I gave zero f*cks about school or work.  I didn't have evil intentions; I just never liked anything in the curriculum.  One thing I absolutely knew I liked was girls, but who makes money off of that concept?  If anything, girls are the ones strangling everyone by the throat holes and robbing their money while they sleep, literally.  Unless it's about beautiful looking ladies, how do we handle reporting to WORK everyday?  I sure as hell know I hate it.  Does anyone ever like their day job?  

The nurse advised me to change my attitude and to be positive.  If only if it was that easy?  Making money is not easy, period.  People will only want you if you can offer them something in exchange.  Unfortunately, women don't pay money for men to come over and have sex with them.  It's obvious that I have to refrain from deviating from my x-ray profession as there won't be much opportunity elsewhere of making a decent some of money.  Look, I was never good at math, computer coding, or even picking up languages.  Hell, I don't think I pale in comparison to anyone in most professions.  So what is the average Joe to do?  Customer service?  Trust me, I've hit rock bottom and done a lot of sh*t tier jobs already.  I know I don't get well along with people unless they're naturally friendly or just desperate.  Well, there's my answer:  Prey on the desperate people by offering them medical services, because they need it.  Do you think beautiful women will be calling you and knocking on your door anytime soon?  I guarantee that won't be happening anytime soon unless you've won the lottery or have some Godlike talent to share with the world.  Yup, just stick with your dead end job until they fire you. 

Are things really that bad out there?  Yup, it's brutal out there for just about everyone.  Family members are cheap as hell and will probably make something up just to screw you.  The government doesn't care and will just take everything after you die.  So who can you trust?  Who really gives a damn?  What really matters?  All I know for certain is "Cash is king".  People just want to be able to go to sleep at night without having to worry about all the bullshit.  Do you think running around and buying expensive things will bring you life fulfillment?  At the center of things, people just want to be SAFE.  They don't want to worry about being in debt, or overdue medical bills, or excessive college loans, traffic tickets, or anything that'll cause grief.  Well, at least that's what I care about.  Well, throwing out all my childhood fantasies and being a grownup sure sucks.  

Now, go out there and make that money!  There's not much else to it really?  You're driving.  You're talking on the phone.  You're walking.  You're pushing/pulling a big, heavy machine around.  You're getting yelled at by your boss.  Customers want you now!  You're typing up a storm.  You're cleaning! Whatever it is, they're paying you.  Thousands on welfare are depending on you!  

No matter how much the work week looks like it sucks, always remember:  

Just be thankful.  Just be grateful.  Just express gratitude.   

Thank you for reading.  I hope you join me next time.