Thankful and Being Grateful for 2020

I may very well never even be noticed.  You may very well call me "Mr. Nobody".  I am that unsung hero who no one gives a crap about.  An individual may very well save the world, but who'd care?  The President of the United States or some Hollywood celebrity would mostly likely get all the credit for it anyways.  What's the point if no one gives a damn?  I mean it's a thankless job.  What do you get out of something for doing good work?  Why not just be born into a wealthy family?  Why must we work so hard for something/someone who'd treat us like crap?  I guess most mothers are able to relate.  You give birth to a baby, you take care of the baby, the baby yells/screams/beats the shit out of you/etc.  What do you have to show for taking care of a child?  At the heart of it, it's the practice of unconditional love.  Being a higher power means that you care regardless of any reward or personal benefit.  By just having a good work ethic, having a backbone, and a strong character will make others notice you're around.  No, it's not about fame and fortune all of the time.  Again, no mother really gives birth to a child to get famous.  I can only imagine how unappreciative, salty, and unforgiving life can be at times.  So what really matters?  Why do any thing if no one is going to give a damn?

Well, if you don't give a damn you're not going to give a damn.  This is the true meaning of a sociopath, just going about your day and doing whatever to get your biweekly paycheck.  After a while, you just feel like a robot.  The key element(s) that separates us from being man or machine is the ability to feel thankful, to feel grateful, to be able to appreciate what we have.  If you had a choice would you be a famous actor or a Christ like figure in some random church somewhere no one would ever really care much about?  If no one is going to see you on film or who cares?  Are we all just a bunch of attention seeking whores?  What value to we offer to not only ourselves but to others?  Where is the love?  Where is the compassion?  I mean would anyone care if you saved 10 random ass villages in Africa?  What's the point of doing all this hard work if no one will give you the time of day for recognizing your contributions to the world?  Why are only evil ass mother truckers recognized throughout history?  Who wants to be the good guy when no one will care about you after you're gone?

Am I doing this all for free stuff!?  Jesus Christ, I need help.  I need help.  I would like to know why we do anything other than "for money" or "to get things".  From birth we are hard wired by society to "do things" just so we can "get things".  This logic is fundamentally highly flawed.  Why can't we think in terms of good? That we do acts of kindness out of love or compassion, because we care?  We do things, because we care; not because we want something in return.  We care for children, the sick, or the elderly because we give a damn.  When love is at the core of why we do anything, all things are possible.  Money, material gain, fame, and fortune is just a byproduct coming from that love and compassion that we have internally that extends outwardly.  When we love what we do, wealth will follow; but when we try to chase wealth love will not follow very long.  We have our moments of grabbing and taking things, but a true foundation of wealth first starts from within; everything else comes secondary.  When you are lost in a sea of haters, just remember to love yourself.  Being able to love yourself is one of the hardest things to do.  You can't really love anyone/anything else for long if you don't love yourself first.  Yes, we do a lot of things to get our minds off of ourselves, but there comes a time it's just going to be you by yourself.  Love will unlock and melt away all obstacles and answer all the questions you may have.  No, it's never easy.  Sometimes, you may very well just find it much easier to not give a fuck.  After everything is all said and done, no one is ever going to really give a fuck other than yourself.  So what if there is a higher being watching over us and giving out and taking away brownie points?  In that case, just be yourself.  The ball is your in your court.           

Have a great day everyone!  Nothing makes me more happy in the moment than grabbing free stuff.  The other day they were giving out "free"S tar Bucks and McDonald's to healthcare works.  If it is one thing I care about, it's getting free stuff.  No, no one has to know about this ordeal; but I feel the rush of it coursing through my veins like a drug.  If it's free, it's for me! 


   

   

What to Buy Now?

Let's face it: When we have the monies, we are overly obsessed about buying stuff.  For me, I don't want actual tangible assets.  I don't like clutter.  I'm a minimalist at heart.  The less crap in the room, the less decisions I need to make on a daily basis.  Therefore, I'm able to just go ahead and complete whatever it is I need to do.  I cannot stress enough how much of a people person that I'm not.  In any event, I will buy stocks, ETFs, mutual funds, etc.  Because the consumer is not spending right now with the pandemic lockdown, it's the perfect time to buy in on the market.  All we see are suggestions to buy whatever has been beaten down to a bloody pulp, such as energy (oil), financials (banks), cruise lines, and airplane lines. The above image is just a little glimpse of my own research. 

Look, everyone has crazy ideas about being the next Wolf of Wall Street, but how many individuals actually ever make it out alive?  Buy this and buy that.  Who the fuck really knows anymore?  One day the market is down, the next day the market is up, and the next day only God knows.  Some of the experts address everyone to just leave your money where you left it, some suggest to get out, some are just buying like crazy, and some people just continue to buy bonds, some people just continue to buy in increments like they don't give a damn, and some people just don't get involved nor have any interest whatsoever.  After everything is all said and done, who is right?  No one ever really knows.  It's all just a big gamble.  Welcome to the casino.  Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose.

Sorry no, you don't know the absolute truth about the future nor do I.  Things constantly change.  No one knows for sure.  Everyday is different.  There's no one ultimate business.  There's no one best brand name.  What exists is an ocean of companies in constant competition with each other.  How about multiple sources of income?  Nope, at some point everyone gets hammered by a recession.  What solutions remain out there?  Yes, buying bonds is a great one but also boring.  None the less, bonds have been yielding great returns this year.  Just continue to buy savings bonds.  It's the safest bet out there. 

So what will I actually be doing?  I'm buying in increments.  I don't have an exact super scientific game plan nor can such a thing ever be deployed, because everything is constantly changing so fast.  No one here can time the market.  Without a crystal ball, I need to rely heavily on ETFs.  I can't afford to buy single, individual stocks.  Buying stocks is just too risky.  I have had bad experiences buying cheap, penny stocks.  I don't trust it at all.  In fact, I remain buying ETFs.  Well, I guess that's just what I must do: Continue to buy ETFs.  As I've stated before, bonds are just to boring for me.  I would rather risk it all than to be boring. 

So there's all this crazy shit going around splattering anal juices everywhere.  What do we do?  Should we buy into the stock market?  You just have to go in there, kick some ass, and do it.
I have said enough.  You can plan and talk all you want, but ultimately what it comes down to is "Just do it" - Nike.  Should you hesitate and not do anything then don't expect to be rich, don't expect any benefits, don't expect anything.  If you do plan on doing something, who knows?  Maybe, there will be another recession after just having a recession.  Place your bets, place your bets. 

 

Caring for 2020

In the end, who cares?  Seriously, what the hell even matters anymore?  Well, this is a photo taken at my hospital of the number of patients being discharged.  For privacy matters, I will not release any other information.  In any event, most people do not even know I even work at a hospital.  Good, because I don't like politics, I don't like being used as a show pony, and above all else I really want people to just go home after all is said and done.  No, I do not want to get into drama or politics.  People are messy, and I don't want to get connected by someone on Facebook.  If you are serious about talking to me, you'll call.  If you have no other means of connecting with me, you're screwed.  It means that I don't care that much.  I will not give a damn if you don't talk to me face-to-face.  I have had too many incidences of random asshole syndrome.  I need a way to protect myself and my time from random acts of asshole behavior. 

In any event, I don't want to waste anymore of my own time and resources having to deal with this pandemic.  I already work 40 hour a week.  I do work during my 40 hours.  I do not want to see or have to communicate with anyone if I'm not at work.  I could care less if anyone tries to get to me.  Sorry, I have to be a safe keeper of my time.  Sorry, I don't get paid for having to deal with extra amounts of shit.  No, it's not fun for me to be doing this.  Have I have been contacted?  Yes, but sorry no dice.  I don't work for free.

I will just jump straight to the point: All that matters in this world is being of service to others, compassion, and love.  I cannot afford anymore acts of stupidity, neediness, insecurities, revengeful payback forms of unresolved karma, and/or other forms of bullshit.  I would like to remain a positive force of nature.  I cannot stress enough how much I don't want to waste my time dealing with assholes.  All that matters is that people get well from this pandemic. 

Thank you for dropping by.  I have no intentions of being famous or having views.  I have had only 1 reader in these past months.  Business is sad, but I'm doing it my way.  Yes, I guess I'm doing it my way and it's been the best learning experience since forever.  Does my way work?  Sorry but no.  Again, it's like I'm writing for the sake of writing and venting but no one ever gets the chance to respond or even post an  asshole comment.  Well, who cares?  It's not like I care enough to grow my audience either.  It's great that I'm writing but who cares?  Only your audience can make you rich.  If you don't care about your audience, your business won't grow either.  I'm the perfect example of that.  I wish I was the full package.  I wish I cared enough.  I wish I had a bigger audience, but it's not like I really care all that much to be blasting my stuff across social media everywhere.  I don't want the backlash, I don't want to be receiving any negative asshole comments/criticism, I don't want to be in the spotlight.  I just don't care.  I don't make any money from this.  I don't care.  Sorry, I don't care enough.  Like the sun and nature outside, it's going to fucking do whatever it's going to fucking do: Rain or shine.  God bless.  I love you all.  Take care.  Peace out. 

- Solomon