The 1 View Wonder

Well, I have exactly 1 view for my last post.  I haven't posted in God knows how long.  For a long while I just stopped blogging and did my own thing while collecting free government handouts. Minimum effort equals minimum wage.  As you can see, putting in something that is half-ass will never amount to anything of significance or important.  Most likely you will not get the desired results you want.  Meaning you will not get the customer's attention, you will not get the maximum number of views, you will not get the audience, and lastly you will get any monetary gain whatsoever.  This is exactly why I do not freak out or get upset over the little things in life, because it doesn't matter.  Arguing with people over small little petty things also falls under the same boat.  No matter how much you try and convince everyone you're right or at a minimum not at fault, you'll never get famous or produce anything of significance over it.  It's just another waste of time.  Some may argue that all these little petty increments of fighting and squabble builds character and maybe even resilience, but that's just not me.  

I got to run, I'll be back to finish.

A New Beginning

Well, I've been training for a month or two doing CAT SCAN at the hospital now.  With all the intricate details aside, I'm slowly getting tired like having a real job.  Thank God, it's not as bad as my last job having to drive all day and visit nursing homes.  Regardless of what I like, life has to go on and life is expensive.  So why do I keep putting myself in a position that I hate and can't stand?  Well, it's simple:  I have kids to feed".  I have bills to pay.  Housing is expensive.  Food is expensive.  Education is expensive.  Commuting is expensive.  Everything is expensive.  Without having to grind a job you hate for a paycheck, I don't know what else is out there for you.  Pray that you land a job you actually like and can enjoy for a long time.  Nothing else is worse than being stuck in a dead end job you hate doing everyday just to pay the bills.  Sorry, I wouldn't want to have kids in this world unless I've somehow setup myself in a winning position where I don't feel like a slave to the system.  My trump card could have been real estate or winning the lottery, but no.  Much like most people I still kind of feel just like another cog in the wheel.  Even if I had millions of dollars, I don't think I would ever pursue a lifetime of work in a hospital helping people.  No, I'm not proud of myself.  No, I don't like being a bum.  No, I do not like being of service to self.  I would like to be more service to others, but it takes a lot more time and effort.  To be able to help another human being, you really need patience and tolerance.  These things take time and energy.  It's not an easy task to help someone.  Most people don't have time to or will charge you an arm and a leg for care.  When you're hurt bad and suffering, you are at the mercy of the industrial medical complex.  You have basically given over your sovereignty to this evil money making cooperate machine. 

A lot of times, I need a place for myself.  I feel that things become very crazy real fast when people try to get together and communicate.  I'm most likely an introvert who does not like seeking out trouble with people.  I find the vast majority of people to be quite scary.  I appreciate the nice ones around.  Unfortunately, there are some really loud or rude people around who just don't give a damn.  These kinds of people say that they don't care, but when you say something to them that they don't like they quickly become offended and may even report you as though you've wronged them.  Why so serious?  I honestly care the least and stay out of the way most of the time.  I'm not interested in finding someone who does nothing but talk really loud and make a big deal about little small details and starts fights over it.  I avoid the egotistical maniac and people who just talk just to show dominance.  Socializing with people can be quite annoying when there's a loud mouth in the room.  I appreciate finding someone who is either funny, knowledgeable, or easy to hangout with.  I also tend to avoid people who are to serious.  Getting along with people is not easy.  Everyone is different and each person has a different personality type.  At the end of the day, I really don't care.  No, I don't want to care.  I just want to come home to my paycheck and be able to sleep at night.

In regards to people skills at the workplace, I'm one of the few anomalies.  I'm not sure if I'm a complete sociopath.  Like I said, I'm really only interested in a job for the money to survive.  I'm not sure if I'm actually into what I'm doing or enjoy what I'm doing.  I've seen other "normal" coworkers who always act like they deeply care and are invested in their "customer".  These "normal" workers like what they are doing and care about everything they do at the workplace.  Well, they get tired out and bitch like everyone else; but they do a very good job at hiding it.  I guess I need to do the same as well.  Revealing your negative side in the work place is never a good idea.  My professor always said some of these hospital workers should be Hollywood actors.  Pretending to provide care for people is a very lucrative people, especially elderly homes.  Do I care?  Nope, I just need the paycheck.  When I'm on the job, do I pretend to care?  Yes, I pretend to care and sometimes emphasize with people but that's only because it's apart of the job.  Regardless of what happens or how upset someone is, I still have a job to do.  Whether I feel happy or sad is irrelevant.  I need to get the job done.  Unfortunately, not everyone feels or thinks the same way.  Sometimes, human beings don't care about what needs to get done and just wants to see someone who actually cares about them.  With regards to people, showing compassion and love goes along way than being a robotic workaholic. 

As you can see, life as a person is complicated.  We all need a job to pay the bills at the expense of others.  It seems that every living thing is at constant competition with one another.  With people getting butthurt over the smallest of things everyday, you really have to pay close attention to detail and watch what you say or better yet just don't do anything nor say anything so that way you can't get in trouble.  Sorry, but I just don't want to care any further than I have to.  At the end of the day, I simply just don't care.  Even after reading peoples' complaints, I still could care less.  Sorry, I can't make everyone happy.  Not caring brings great joy to my life.     

Thank you for visiting.  I hope to post again soon.