Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Will I Always Be Poor? The Forever Poor is You!

So am I just going to be eternally engulfed in poverty?  Will I ever become rich?  With all crazy nonsense aside, the answer to that may heavily lie on investing.  Let's take this study on the left here:  You invest $1000 in 15 Fortune 500 companies in the year 2007, 10 years ago.  At the time, you don't know which companies will succeed in the distant future.  Because they are solid, established companies, you don't expect much risk or exponential growth for that matter because they have already reached a level maturity.  In any event, you have $15,000 to spare at the time and go ahead and start investing.  For me, I did not have $15,000; but I had about the same amount in student debt.  My thinking was probably offset and mislead by the false promises of an education at the time as well.  Have I just worked a minimum wage job at a local pharmacy, like I did at Walgreen after graduation anyways, I would of had a lot more saved up by now.  Long story short, that $15,000 investment would be $99, 291!  Has my $15,000 in student loans and college blessed me with such a minimum of such a whopping number!?  No, my Rutgers University college degree has done jack shit for me!  Who the hell cares about paying for college anymore when you have the stock market?  College is great for doctors, lawyers, engineers, and anyone else who really cares enough to the point they'll drown themselves in student loans/debt, but that is not me.  I'm more of a shrewd businessman who wants to do the least amount of work possible but still reap the rewards and benefits of investing.  I repeat I don't want $15,000 in student loans and a college degree, I want that $99,291!  What don't you people understand!  That money I invested in could have been used now to go back to college and go after a degree worth something like engineering, finance, or whatever the hell I wanted!  Now, I'm screwed.  Because I have the bachelor's degree, I don't even qualify for financial aid (FASA) anymore!  Don't you people get it?  It's all about industry, serving the industry, and making money!  Are there any other alternatives?  Are there better ways of doing things?  Yes, but as far as I know this is the best option I have at my disposal in terms of surviving.  "Go to college" my ass; "Make money" yes.  I cannot go back in time and change things, but I can do is to invest in these companies as of today.  With the internet and all these exchanges online, it's real easy.  If you've read my previous posts, this is what I've been doing with my biweekly paychecks.  I would like to live in a world where "Go to college" is the answer, but that is obviously not the case as jobs are always scarce and the competition is always plentiful.  Again, I do not want to reiterate how I don't want to sacrifice an arm and a leg to achieve greatness.  I'm perfectly fine being an investor.  If all I'm good at doing is investing than that's what I'm happy to be stuck with!

Just above is what I've been doing.  It's my own Vanguard ETF portfolio.  I'm invested in a wide range of diversified ETFs that expands through multiple levels of industry and sectors.  I started out with nothing and here I am not at $33,627.21.  This is not a get rich quick schemes.  I've been working a regular job, but the only thing I do differently is invest.  Beyond diversification is being an early on investor which takes a lot of guts and risk.  I use to be one of those people who just sit in the sidelines, don't want to take the risk ,or are just plain lazy.  Whatever you do, don't just sit in the sidelines and watch.  Watching the world pass you by is not fun.  Going to school and being told what to do is an archaic way of thinking and will not serve you well.  Seriously, it's all about industry.  Whether you do or you don't, I want to be rich.  I want to have money.  I don't want to be poor.  It's that simple!  At the same time, I don't like socializing and networking with other people as people tend to be very confusing with wording, emotions, rudeness, conflicting interests, being manipulative, rules, standards, having weird indoctrination rituals, etc.  Sometimes, you really need to bring a lawyer with you to understand how crazy and detailed some of these people potentially are.  It's not fun being around people who are way too God damn serious all the time where 1 decimal point mistake can turn them into an exploding asshole.  Well, I have 4 more days left off, and I need to go out and make the best of it!       

Thank you for reading!  I hope to post some sweet Black Friday and Cyber Monday deals for review!             

Monday, November 20, 2017


When all is said and done, what are people best at?  That's right hoarding!  There seems to be no end to the grabbing, the looting, the buying/selling, Black Friday, coupons, and just all out savageness when it comes the opportunity of getting your hands on something.  I've acquired most of my stuff legally using several methods of online discounts, coupons, sales, buying in bulk discounts, ebay, Amazon, etc.  I mean it's just stuff.  What's the point of it all if it just sits on a shelf?  I do, do a lot of reselling to turn out a profit and that always has a place in my heart but what about books?  Books are a tough choice to hoard.  They take up a lot of space, and they're hard to get rid of unless it matches some college class requirement, which they just keep making new editions anyways.  I'm seriously running low on space.  I would like a functional library shelf and not just a place to hoard stuff.  I value the knowledge I can obtain through actually picking up a book and reading it.  I've never been the best at speed reading and/or comprehension, but reading is definitely one of the few keys in life actually worth every second of your time.  Unless it's for school, I don't do as much reading as I would like.  I know the benefits of reading overwhelmingly outweigh the feelings of not wanting to care or choosing to accept that "Ignorance is Bliss".  When I asked my teacher in college the very same question she responded with "Because knowledge is freedom".  I would like to spend some more time reading and make it a daily ritual.  So how do I get off my ass and start doing just that.  I mean just look at my bookshelves covered in stuff.  I obviously need a lot of improvement on bookshelf aesthetics and functionality.  Cutting out the nonessential will definitely help my game reading more often and frequently.

What am I do with the books I don't need?  You know the books I just grabbed because the library was getting rid of their old stock.  Some books are just outdated and unreliable in today's times.  I mean who the hell needs to learn about DOS from the 90's?  This is just excessive information that I don't need.  A lot of these books just don't provide any value to me anymore.  Some of these oldies can't even be sold, because it's that bad nor do I want to take the time and hold them for the next buyer (whenever that'll be).  If limited space wasn't an issue, I'd keep them all; but like so many people space is very limited!  If I can't sell them, I'll just leave a load of them at the local public library.  There's no need for me to keep an excessive amount of reading material at home just for the sole purpose of hoarding!  Because I care and that is why I'm going to rearrange and make my bookshelf as functional and spiffy as possible.  I hope to post an update picture of my bookshelf.

Thank you for stopping by and reading!  Come back soon!     


My 5 Day Week Off

Hello everyone!  Welcome to my show.  I just happen to have the whole week off!  It's a great and fabulous time.  Of all seriousness, what did I do today?  It's already 1:30PM in the afternoon  and all I've done is roll out of the bed, turned on the computer, browsed through the internet, read some of my emails, watched a youtube video about being frugal and being financially savvy, and now I'm here blogging.  Is this not enough?  Did I not get tons of sleep like I wanted to?  Did I not arrive on the information highway out of my bed in a matter of seconds!?  Why does it seem like it's never enough?  At the moment, I do not wish to care about what anyone else thinks about me, my schedule, or how I do things.  This is a time to get to really know myself.  Once again, I'm met by a man in the mirror who just doesn't seem to want to care about anything unless it's about making money and/or doing something that'll promote health.  I guess that's really my thing.  If I just so happened to have a crazy, high-tech invention in my hands and at my disposal, what would I do with it?  Would I use it for myself?  Would I help father my own family and start an entire new culture   The simplest answer would be to charge people money for it and reap the profit off of it.  In short, I would be blind sided by the true value of my crazy, high-tech invention and just try to make money off of it by selling it to the highest bidder.  I'm not much different than the government selling technology off to lesser countries in exchange for an equal amount of goods, services, and/or treaties.  We all have an internalization of a system of trade and meeting some kind of quota and/or equilibrium.  Whether it's time, cash, digital currency, stocks, bonds, food, animals, people, blood, body parts, plants, medicine, technology, service, robots, computers, or God else knows what's out there, we can all relate to TRADE. 

With my time off of work, what do I do?  Well, here I am blogging.  I think about stuff, and I write it down.  Does the stuff I think about or dream ever have any value or may interest others?  I maybe operating on a paradigm of a service-to-self model.  What I do, think, or dream about maybe all due to selfish reasons, but at the same time maybe information/knowledge that can be shared with others.  It's not easy to find balance between the two.  At one end, you need to survive and at the other end there always seems to be "other people" involved.  "There is no I in team" as they say.  The collective consciousness of all sentient may actually be a thing, but at the same time human beings are far from accessing its true potential.  We all don't see eye-to-eye with each other.  We all seem to want our own independence, living space, and stuff.  As long as we remain heavily independent from each other, we'll never seem to achieve a sense of unity under the idea of collective consciousness.  But at the same time, this is where it gets into a more metaphysical and spiritual matter as we are more connected than we seem to be aware of.  Dolphins are a perfect example how they are able to travel and communicate with each other in packs.  Without the use of speech, electronics, and/or technology; they are able to send and receive signals from each other and travel in unison.  Somehow, they are always connected to each other for better/worse.  But I'm not a dolphin; nor do I feel much sense of a connection to this intangible being of collective consciousness.

Without being hooked up with the collective consciousness, we, as humans, are basically screwed.  Where would we conceptualize new ideas from?  Where would our inspiration come from?  Where would our creativity come from?  How'd we dream?  All of this lies deep in the pituitary gland and/or intuition.  It's all mental.  Where would I be without the access to the internet?  Likewise, the pituitary gland or the master gland maybe the culprit behind all this mysticism.  Long story short, I spend a lot of time sleeping.  Why would anyone be sleeping for 12 hours if they could be awake and making money?  Yes, sleep is for taking care of biological needs and needed for the building blocks of cells, but there's also more to it.  Because that's when I actually dream!  When I dream, my thoughts and my body become lucid.  I am able to have outer body experiences without have to be tied down to this Earth.  With the ability to fly and astral travel to different places in space, I've seen and experienced some pretty wild rides!  Who cares about money if I'm having an out of this world experience! 

So what weird stuff have I've seen in my dreams?  Do you really want to know?  It's not for the faint of heart nor do I expect anyone to believe me.  To my best abilities, I will describe what I've been dreaming about and experiencing.  Aside for the normal romance and sexual desires, sometimes I just happen to appear on off world planets.  I don't know where I am, nor do I seem to be bothered by it, but I just show up and go along with the story.  Obviously, I have had many, many different dreams and experiences, but I'll narrow it down to the most interesting and noteworthy ones.  For one, I encountered an experience with a grey alien.  Towards the end of my sleep, all of the sudden I "awoke" in my sleepy somber and began to rip off something shielding my head, the face of some strange looking alien (grey-purple) trying to manipulate and intentionally mind control me.  At the time, it felt so real in my dream that I actually woke up!  The other dream I had, I just happened to encounter a green reptilian humanoid about the size of a midget (3 feet) in a purple robe or something run in/out of some kind of library room I was in filled with several cyborgs (fat, bald human with body attached to a floating, golden hover chair).  It was surprising to see a reptilian hominid for the first time as well as the cyborgs!  I have no idea how my mind would even dream of something like that unless there was some actual truth behind it. 

Years ago in another dream I had, I was lying peacefully on a hill in a beautiful planet surrounded by dark, glowing purple.  The whole theme of the planet was purple, purple sky, purple, grass, the leaves on the trees were purple, everything was just a hue of purple.  It was beautiful!

Before all these strange dreams and experiences began happening, I had a hallucination/dream/vision/whatever you want to call.  The important thing is "I saw" three slide shows.  I could never forget what I experienced, but it was weird.  I'm not sure if it was something internal going on with an imbalance of my brain chemistry or I just so happened had telepathic communication going on with some unknown entity from outer space.  This kind of thing just doesn't happen to everyone nor do I recommend such a thing to anyone.  In any event, the 3 visions I saw went as followed:  #1 A young girl committed suicide cutting herself with a knife; #2 An atomic bomb going off (I could see the mushroom cloud from afar just exploding like it was live); #3 The printing and the endless continuation of the printing of money (black and white).  I never tell anyone this story, because IT HAS GOTTEN ME INTO TROUBLE.  I do not want to reveal anymore details but people do get SERIOUS about this kind of stuff and is considered "WORK".  I'll end it at.

So if I had any kind of super power or anything notable, I'd have a ton of money by now (which I don't).  Therefore, it's all just a bunch of mumbo jumbo.  Have I had any psychic powers or anything even remotely significant, I would have been an early invester in Google, Apple, Bitcoin, Tesla, Alibaba, etc.  Hell, I would have even picked a different college major!  Now it's too late!  So who cares!?  I have the whole week off.  I'm here to enjoy whatever little time I have before I have to actually go back to work! 

Thank you for dropping by!  I hope to see more of you and to keep blogging!


Wednesday, November 1, 2017

My Ideal Business Plan

Let's face it, I'm lazy.  I don't wake up at 4 am, I'm not a morning person, and I don't really seriously care enough to have to drive anywhere to make big business deals like you see in the movies.  This is not a God damn movie; this is real life!  I'm not going to be super consistent nor have a sustainable business model with a brick and mortar store front with actual, real customers walking in and out.  I don't care enough to pay thousands of dollars for rent each month nor would I want to open retail space down in the ghetto just to save a few dollars on a lease.  I also don't really want to hire anyone like some kind of real, serious job.  I guess I'm a one man band.  If I die, my dreams and business go down with me.

So what is left out there in the world of business for the lazies in the world?  You don't have the time, you have a family to take of, you just don't care enough, you get too many emails/phone calls, etc.  Trust me, there's an excuse for just about not achieving what you want in life; but I'm here to tell you today what my plan is to go the extra mile and actually do something that'll have an impact on my life.  My business must be something that I can actually perform on a daily basis and is practical.  Guess what it is?  I'm an investment consulting firm.  Initially I'm not charging anyone a dime nor do I need to.  All I do is invest my own money into different ETFs, mutual funds, stock, cryptocurrency, toys, video games, and whatever that looks like a good buy, and then show the results to my audience.  I'm not looking for pan handouts.  I'm showing my audience that I can not only support myself but potentially generate income starting my own business.  I'm just starting this out as a hobby.  What I can do is open my own LLC using LEGALZOOM.  It's about $149 minimum to start.  If all goes well, and I show that I can make a lot of money for myself then great.  Further down the road somewhere, someone maybe interested in my financial model and practices and maybe considering investing in me.  It doesn't have to be so serious; they can just subscribe, watch my youtube videos, or just visit my website and I'll get an affiliate link in the background somewhere to start monetize somewhere.  It doesn't have to be so complicated and serious.  Anyone can start a sustainable, functional business model that can provide potential value if they really tried.

With the current technology I am in possession of and willing to learn and use, I believe I can pull it off but it just takes time.  No, I'm not endorsing a get rich quick pyramid scheme.  This is just one of my many creations and experiments.   I'm hoping that it can take off one day.

So what happens?  Well, for starters time will just pass by.  You get lazy and just don't do anything unless it involves a phone call and a whole giant slew of calling people to get shit done.  That is why you need a manager to be a bosshole that hovers over your shoulder 24/7 every waking second of the day.  Well that sure as Hell is not me.  I research, invest, I post, I'm done for the day and do whatever.

Thank you for stopping by today!  I hope to see you next time!


Wednesday, October 25, 2017


So what is the biggest problem you'll ever face in this life?  Well aside from health related issues and family/friends dying left and right, you will be working for someone else you probably hate.  Good luck trying to find someone you actually like working for.  You'll always be STUCK in the same grind/loop, unless YOU START YOUR OWN BUSINESS.  Somehow, you have to break out the vicious cycle of WORKING FOR SOMEONE ELSE.  Yes, it's a huge problem a lot of people have.  At first, it's perfectly okay to be working for someone else to gain the experience, knowledge, and customer service skills; but then at some point in time you outgrow it.  Like a baby, you no longer feel the need to suck on your mother's tit for sustenance.  One day, you'll just have a burning desire to become more independent and do things on your own.   Join me on my adventure to start my first official, real legal company.       

Am I ready?  I have the knowledge, the experience, and the customer service skills to venture out all on my own from here.  I know it's about networking.  I know it's about solving problems and helping serve the customer better.  When all is said and done, people just want to go home and collect their paycheck.  Before I or anyone else just goes ahead and starts their own business, you have to understand what you are in for.  I know myself to be quite introverted.  I know I will only be a small business.  I know this business is for me, YES FOR ME, to be more independent, for me to have something of interest to do for a while, but at the same time I'm also helping my customers with their needs and wants and making a few bucks in between.  My business is not just all about making money and more money until someone dies of a heart attack/stroke/lack of sleep.  I want balance, but at the same time I know the underlying issue of any business to survive is strictly based on "MAKE MONEY".  So my business setup is kind of like a hobby but also makes money at the same time, all the while helping people and offering quality customer service.

Yes, it's my hobby; not my full time job or main source of income.  I don't have intentions of my business ever becoming super big or even be able to be sold to someone else for thousands of dollars.  I just need a place to start.  I need ideas.  I need to know how I naturally operate.  I've been going to school and working for the man all my life, I have no idea how to operate on my own by myself other than just selling on eBay or Amazon.  I need experience.  I need to create my vision.  I need to build a brand name.  One day, I would like to be more than a homeless.

Maybe that's just me?  Maybe, the most I can do for the customer is resell stuff?  I just don't see myself with having a great impact in the world.  What can I actually do that'll change the world for the better?  I already feel like I'm at maximum capacity over here.  I don't have it in me to reach another level of plateau.  It's just like I'm stuck!  I just need to be able to reach just a little further to the next step, but I can't.  Maybe, I should just write my own books for a living and get Amazon to help me self publish.  The actions and course I can take are seriously limited by my budget, my limited skill sets, my lack of networking, and just not believing in myself enough.  Is it possible that I'm just all talk and full of shit?  I don't want to be delusional.  At the heart of it, I need to create a basic business plan and follow it step by step, hit goals, and move forward with deadlines.         

"Some day" or "One day I will" is all a bunch of bullshit!  Believe me, I am no stranger to procrastination or having wild, crazy fantasy about fortune and fame.  How the hell does anyone get anything actually done around here!?  First of all, it takes dedication and discipline even if it means having to rent out or fix up some old, dirty garage and renovating the place.  You cannot just make believe all the time.  For example, people always tell themselves they're going to workout at the gym and lose weight after Thanksgiving.  Well, they don't feel like paying for a gym membership and try to workout it at home; or if they do pay they end up not going!  This is an everyday laziness mentality, habit average people always have!  They say they're going to do things but never execute!  You need some initiative and execute!    You need to clear out your room and hang posters, pictures, and plans relevant to your goals!  No, having random ass shiny things, electronics, and toys around isn't going to cut it.  Your designated room of work needs to be dedicated and clutter free!  It's the easiest thing you can do to focus on your business!  You can't obtain what is not clearly identified in the first place!  Know what you want!  If you don't know what you want and you still have random ass shiny things in your room that just means you're not ready and just keep doing what you are doing until you do know what you want.  The absolute most basic things you should know about before starting your own business are things like what's your product, what does your product look like, who are your targeting audience, who are your customers, who are not your customers, and it make me money.  If you don't have a general idea who your target audience is or even what your product you're trying to sell them, then you are just not ready and keep trying and brainstorming with new ideas.

If none of this shit works, guess what!?  You're automatically cast back into WORKING FOR THE MAN.  Welcome back to your 9-5 until you are lucky enough to reach retirement age, win the lottery, or die!         

I'll have further details about the next steps I'll be taking as I do believe you should always practice what you preach! 

Thank you for stopping by and reading my content.  Because there are so few of you who come and stop by, I really appreciate it!  See you next time!

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Old Habits Don't Die

After being conditioned to work everyday like a slave,  what do you do with your time off!?  It's incredible that you are finally "free"!  So, what do you do with your time?  What do you really want to do?  Having time off from work is just the beginning.  For me, I still wanted "to work".  Wait, what!?  Yes, you become the habits that you form during your lifetime doing whatever it is you've been doing.  We are whatever habits we form.

So what have I been really doing after I left my 24/7 mobile x-ray job?  I've been sleeping late and waking up late.  Whatever I transformed myself into during my job hours, I'm back to where I started from, a homeless.  Without money, cash, credit, coupons, treasure, pirate booty, or any kind of incentive for putting effort into something; I don't care.  Literally, I don't care nor do I want to care; but I still have this pulsating vibe in my soul to be doing something productive.  Other than to acquire more money, I don't know what that "doing something productive" is quite exactly.  I would like to know what that something is, but it's like I'm not suppose to be aware of what it is.  As a result, whatever the hell it is I'm doing right this instant is that something productive I'm suppose to be doing.  With a little bit of imagination and creativity that something could be anything really.  I'm not limited or bound by any field and/or subject matter.  I'm basically here to discover and learn new things.  It's like being "Jack of all trades, master of none."  Yes, I know these kinds of people don't make as much money as specialists do; but this is who I am basically.      

Without any external devices, societal controls, or emphasis on acquiring acquisitions this is what I do for the vast majority of the day that I would normally do without much effort or having to think twice about it:

    • GAMING 
As you can see, other than to take care of myself mentally, physically, and spiritually; I naturally don't care much about anything else.  Who am I really?  I'm just someone who wants to take care of myself.  Being on television and showing off my acting skills has never been my thing.  Networking and going out to talk to people about business has never been my thing either.  All of this power tripping and making money stuff has been brought on by societal conditioning over the years.  If all of this bullshit is taken out, I'll be back to my normal, homeless ass self.   

So what's missing in this whole picture?  Where is the growth?  Where is the learning?  Where is the productivity?  Where is the meaning?  Where is the essence?  Well, if you're happy all the time; you can't grow.  You have to challenge yourself everyday.  You have to embrace the failure and negativity in order to succeed.  So yes, always develop the skill sets and have experience to solve difficult problems and managing potentially hostile situations.  No, being a homeless is not the answer.  Being able to grow, learn, solve problems, and experience new things is always going to be a thing and you can only get there through hard trials, failure after failure, and going through tough shit.  

Thank you for visiting.  I hope you learned something.  I'll see you next time! 

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Retired Mobile X-Ray Technician

Hello my readers, I've quit my job August 31, 2017.  I held my mobile x-ray technician job for 2 full years without any real vacation time or sick days.  I was making about $21 - $23 an hour.  I would make about $32 an hour for overtime.  After paying two state taxes New Jersey and New York, I would only take home about $1400 on average (bi-weekly paycheck).  If I was lucky, I would be seeing $1500.  If I covered for someone else's day(s), the most I would see is right under $2000.  Long story short, it's about $50,000 - $55,000 a year.  

Well, the truth is it was really something.  It was Hell on Earth to have to wake up, get out of bed, drive to some random nursing home (30 min - 3 hours) and take some x-rays for a patient or two.  You think that's all?  Nope, sometimes the same facility would call up to 3 or 4 times in any given day.  Basically, the company has clients to serve that is a laundry list  of over 1000 different doctors and nursing home/private home/apartments locations.  I've spent 14 hours driving around from nursing home to nursing home both New Jersey and New York.  They don't care if you burnout and die over this job.  It's just another day, another dollar to them.  To make matters worse, you're dealing with patients and the social environment is always set on SENSITIVE.  Patients have family, nurses, doctors, etc. surrounding them all the time.  You have to be very careful not to upset anyone or else they can kick you out.  In a nut shell, you have to possess all the time in the world, be able to work with people and patients, take x-rays, drive around everywhere in all kinds of unimaginable weather and conditions, take care of the van and equipment, and come home late at night.  They also wanted us to perform EKG's as well.  Unfortunately, some of these nursing homes don't have EKG's onsite and will hire a mobile service.  For whatever reason, they don't want an EKG onsite probably because they want to rack up more charges on the patient's medicare/medicaid bill to make more money for business expenditures.  Whatever the reason is, it's really f*cked up.  I would drive up to 11 different locations in any given day of the week.  On average, it's about 8 nursing home.  If I was really lucky, I'd only have to do 6 minimum.  Each destination can vary from 30 minutes, 45 minutes, an hour, 2 hours, and even 3+ hours.  Driving around Staten Island, Brooklyn, Long Island, Queens, Astoria, Uptown, and then back here to New Jersey is no easy task.  After a while it makes you really, really want to quit this job.  The money is decent for a recent grad, but it's just not worth it anymore.  I've paid all my student loans and the mortgage for the home I'm currently residing in.  No, I may not have my own place; but I can get out and find an apartment for about $1000/month here for myself if I really wanted to.  Sometimes they would send me to a place and the patient wouldn't even be present.  Basically, I would drive around, sit in traffic, and look for someone who didn't even give a f*ck.  I'm sorry, but I can't do a job where the other person doesn't even care about himself/herself to even show up.  To make matters worse, the roads and the traffic are just bad.  It's New York traffic, the worst on the planet.  I just couldn't deal with all the drama and baggage anymore.  I'm glad I left.
I am thankful that I wrote my letter of resignation.  I am thankful that I submitted my letter of resignation.  I am thankful that I executed a prompt exit strategy without anything or anyone blowing up.  I am grateful for such an opportunity, the bounty I have received with having a job, and continuing with my life having just quit after two years.

So what's life after you quit the grind?  I mean, I've been so accustomed to just wake up, walk out of the door, work all day, and come home late at night.  I've been conditioned to be a robot and respond to text messages on my phone for assignments.  Well, it looks like it's up to me to use my imagination and creativity to figure out how I want my "new life" to be setup and lived accordingly; or would I just prefer spontaneous randomness?  I guess it's a mixture of two as life is always changing.  What I don't want to see myself doing is playing video games all day that is unless I'm streaming, amass a large audience, and make money off of it.  Yes, back to making money.  What the hell am I going to do for money?  Now, I work at a local urgent care center, not to far from my home.  I have been given only 2 days a week, but I'm happy with my hours for now.  No, I'm not making mad money as I use to; but I feel much more comfortable and caring for my situation.  There's a large deal of emotional intelligence that goes into all this that needs to be respected.  Do you want a job that pays a lot of money but will make you miserable; or do you want a job that pays less that you'd actually enjoy or at a minimum "like".  I wouldn't know that myself unless I've actually done it, and I have.  My last mobile x-ray job did give me a jolt of more money for what it's worth, but I hated it.  I hated waking up to any given day when I was on call.  Spending my time to drive to some dingy nursing home was the last thing I ever wanted to do on this Earth.  I don't even like visiting my grandma, how is it possible I'd enjoy seeing other elderly people?  It was a living hell hole.  I'm glad I'm gone.  

So I left my old job that was paying me a livable wage, and now I'm currently working at a local urgent care center for two days a week.  Please, enough with the make more money thing 24/7.  I hated it okay?  If I can provide a service or product to potential customers and buyers that I actually like doing, it'd be well worth my time.  I really want a positive attitude facing the challenges of holding onto a job.  I don't want to step into a nursing home for work and be like "I don't want to f*cking be here".  I want to play things off my positive emotions and attitude and not have to be so disgruntled and negative towards my job environment.  I would have a much better time and life doing something I like than doing something I hate.  What is money worth if you are miserable doing the job you hate?  I'd use that money to find or educate myself to do something I prefer and/or actually like doing.  I'm very grateful for leaving my old mobile x-ray job.  I am thankful for the paychecks that have come in for the past two years.  I will try and make the best of my time here.  I will not consider going back into a field I'd hate just for the money.  I want to have a positive attitude and make money all at the same time.

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