Well, it's been about a week. Even after watching all these random youtube videos, reading self help books, financial books, business books, obtaining a college bachelor's degree, having multiple jobs, saving up money, dieting, exercising, and deploying whatever else life hacks there are under the sun, you'd think I would have amounted to something extraordinary by now? Where is my product that I'm selling you? What the hell is it that I'm trying to sell you? I look down at my desk and see absolutely nothing. Seriously, there's no product I'm trying to sell you. It's amazing how much time and effort I put into life and there's absolutely nothing that I can call my own that I can sell you. Like most people, I just fall under the ranks of working for someone else. Hell, I'm not even sure I would even be termed as someone who has met the minimum requirements of self actualization. I have contributed absolutely bare minimum to society in terms of making an impact. Yes, I've had jobs, worked, and volunteered but all of these things really belong to someone else at the end of the day. Where is my big thing that I can bring other people on board and contribute to make an impact in this world? Is the vast majority of us just destined to be qualified as worker ants with very little or no life long significant impact?
I just don't get it. It's like I'm the perfect example of "Mr. Nobody". The most I can ever hope for is being able to afford to pay my living expenses, period. I have never written a book. I have never shot film using an action adventure movie script. I've never done anything cool!? And yet, I face harsh criticism and judgement everyday like I'm suppose to give an actual damn about all this, about my life. Have I actually done something with my life, I would have faced even more criticism. Either way, I'm ultimately doomed to be judged and criticized under a tiny, little microscopic lens by "the audience". As they say life is a stage and we are just the actors and actresses abound. If there's no money, fame, or fortune to be had, I honestly don't want to be apart of the drama.
Without the spark of creativity and intuition, what else is out there for average Joe except walking around Walmart and buying crap? Well, I'm stuck on an evolutionary trend of being mediocre. Until I can somehow sell something that I can call my own, I feel like I'm just like I'm just trying to get by.
Thank you for visiting and reading another one of my blogs. I hope to see you next time. I can't guarantee I will change or be a better person, but I can promise you I'll be back.
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